SPM IS OVER!

Studied in SMK BINTULU  for over 5 years. But I feel that I just been there for only a couple years.
Today is the last day I'll be wearing my school uniform. Although it's not fashionable and pinafores are way too outdated, but it's my school's uniform. Memoirs keep flashing back.

I can't believe that i'm graduating highschool.




HAHAHA


Apart the excitement in finishing SPM, I'm excited about the freedom and new experience I'm gonna have next year.

Recently, I'm obsessed with dresses. Mainly korean based dresses.



















Like usually these kind of dresses are not thigh, it's loose but it's still fashionable and pretty.
I eat a lot so my stomach shows so..........   hahaha that's mainly my reason that I chose loose dresses.


BTW. I came across a funny advertisement about an online shop. (www.zalora.sg)
the screaming. hahaha! epic!!!

Till then, I'm now currently enjoying my study free holiday. chow!!

TED 2012

Despite of the some XXX scene. *still trying to forget it*
It's a very touching story between a lonely boy had an only friend- teddy bear which came to live by miracle.

As the result of a childhood wish, John Bennett's teddy bear, Ted, came to life and has been by John's side ever since - a friendship that's tested when Lori, John's girlfriend of four years, wants more from their relationship.

I cried at the end though. They all lived happily ever after ><

A good movie to watch!

Today, I had my modern math exams. 

And I'm starting to get lower confidence with my math-related subjects..

Dang..........................

May God bless me though. =)

DRAMA FEVER x3

I'm a big fan of Lee Min Ho!!

look how gorgeous he is!!!

A new drama of him was on ! 

Entitled Faith ( 信义)

"Faith" depicts the love between a warrior from the Goryeo Period and a female doctor from the present day, their love transcending time and space.
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King Gongmin (Ryu Deok-Hwan), who was held as a hostage in Yuan (China) for an extended period of time, becomes the King of Goryeo (Korea). He married Princess Nogoog (Park Se-Young), who is the Princess of Yuan. Choi Young (Lee Min-Ho) and his men escort King Gongmin and Princess Nogoog from Yuan to Goryeo.
On the way to Goryeo, the group stays at an inn. Assassins then break into the inn and attack their group. During the struggle, Princess Nogoog's neck is slashed by an assassin's sword. Jang Bin (Phillip Lee), who is the most renown doctor in Goryeo, states that he can't save her. If Princess Nogoog dies, Yuan will takeover Goryeo completely. King Gongmin's vassal asks King Gongmin to go pray on a mountain near a mystical source of light. When they get there, they see the mysterious lights swirling around like an entrance to a vacuum. King Gongmin's vassal tells the King that the swirling lights is actually a portal where they can retrieve a great doctor from the heavens. King Gongmin then tasks Choi Young to enter the portal and retrieve the great doctor.
After entering the mystical swirling lights, Choi Young finds himself beneath a statute at a temple. When he leaves the grounds of the temple, Choi Young is confused by the strange sights. He sees modern buildings, contemporary people and automobiles. Choi Young goes back to the temple, which is actually a traditional village area in the middle of present day Seoul, and spots a monk walking by. Choi Young asks the monk where he can find the great doctor. The monk tells Choi Young that at the nearby COEX building, where a medical convention is taking place, he can find the best doctors there.
Choi Young makes his way to the COEX building and walks into the medical convention area. He then enters a seminar room and sees a woman speaking to a large audience. The woman is Dr. Yoo Eun-Soo (Kim Hee-Seon). Choi Young believes that she must be the great doctor. No sooner than he makes his conclusion, Choi Young is quickly dragged out of the conference room by security guards and taken to a room to be interrogated. Choi Young then sees Dr. Yoo Eun-Soo walking through the convention hall on the CCTV monitors placed on the wall in the interrogation room. Choi Young then knocks down the security guards and makes his way back onto the convention center floor.
After giving her seminar, Dr. Yoo Eun-Soo walked through the convention center floor, examining the latest surgical equipment that is on display. Choi Young then appears in front of her and asks her to go with him so she can treat someone that is gravely wounded. Yoo Eun-Soo refuses to go with the man that is dressed like a soldier from ancient times. Choi Young, not yet sure if she is the great doctor, takes out his sword and slashes the neck of a nearby man. Choi Young orders Yoo Eun-Soo to save the man. Yoo Eun-Soo is freaked out by Choi Young's actions, but her doctor instincts kicks in and she works to save the life of the man. Choi Young is now sure that Yoo Eun-Soo is indeed the great doctor and that she can save Princess Nogoog.
At this time, the police storm into the convention hall floor and surround Choi Young and Yoo Eun-Soo. Choi Young then summons his own mystical powers to completely obliterate the police officers surrounding them. Choi Young takes Dr. Yoo Eun-Soo back to the temple, where the time portal exists. On the way there, Yoo Eun-Soo begs Choi Young to let her go, but Choi Young swears on his life that if she saves Princess Nogoog he will let her go back.
When they exit the portal, Choi Young and Dr. Yoo Eun-Soo are standing in front of King Gongmin, his vassal and Choi Young's men. They all go to the inn where Princess Nogoog is nearing death.










BTW, Lee Joon Gi was initially the cast for the main actor, but due to his military services. He had to drop out. 
But what gives =w= they're both equally hot.！
xD

Is it okay to cry?

It was 8:oo pm as my father came in and said we were going out for a surprise. This was rare, after my mother passed away after she gave birth to me, my dad was always finding it hard to juggling with his work and looking after me, this is hard as i am dyslexic. My dad needs to get extra help for me as I'm starting high school I am 11.

My father took my hand and escorted me to the car. This would be the last time i set foot in this car. It was getting dark and the rain was pelting on the car i sat back and looked out the window to figure out where we were going. I was in the passenger's seat and my dad was driving. It was so cold outside that the car windows started to freeze.

We were coming out of the tunnel when my dad threw his hand at the horn "BEEP-" There was silence as our bodies got forced forward and the airbags hit our face. The windscreen was completely shattered and the car smaller and bashed as it was before. Then i heard cars drifting to avoid the van and our car then came screams and the van drivers voice shouted "Call the ambulance... as I loss concise.

I woke up seeing light above me and doctors all around me holding an mask to my mouth while rushing me into the intensive care unit. Everything around me was blurry and i was thinking more about my dad than the pain that was shooting around be fragile body. I lost concise again as my body was giving up on me everything went blank.....

I woke up four months later to see my dad at the side of my hospital bed clenching my hand and saying how much he loved me and the surprise was what my mum wanted to show you when you were going to high school it was a locket saying "never give up from mum and dad" , as i started to see objects ,shadows, colors etc. i could see that my dad was with a nurse sitting in a wheel chair with a neck supporter on and a stocky on his left arm and the locket in the other he was in a very critical condition but still putting up a fight to see me. I lifted my hand to take off the mask I was wearing but I was unable as I was so weak and shocked to see my father and me hocked up in all sorts of different wires. I looked around again at my dad and said i love you too as he started to drifted off the nurse was shouting numbers and letters at the other doctors and nurses. They put my dad on a stretcher and rushed him back to his room, all i could think about was him. I was crying while nurses where trying to calm me down. I was fighting to get out of my bed and walk. I pulled myself up and got out of bed , my foot touched the ground but not for long as i fell down with it. The doctor lifted myself up into bed and said the words i was dreading to hear " i didn't want to be the one that told you but your so unwell you can't walk, you can barely move". i was confused and said "but i got myself out of bed " then the doctor replied if you didn't see your dad you would have not, it is your adrenaline kicking in" i stopped and lay there while the doctor was feeding me through a tube i thought to myself is this a nightmare?

The next day the nurse came in and held my hand she said to me, "i am so sorry to tell you this but your dad has past away ,but there is a family wanting to adopt you they are lovely and they have a wee girl your age that also has dyslexia so you will be going to the same classes". i stopped and looked away as tears ran down my face, down my eye. i was distort that my dad past away but i was so pleased to hear that someone wanted me with my learning disorder, that i would finally have a mum and a sister that understood me.

The week after the bad news my new parents and their doctor visited me that was my first visit since my dad came in. The family looked beautiful the mother of this family had long blond hair and blue eyes she was skinny, The father had short light brown hair with green eyes and was also skinny and the little girl had blond hair and green eyes. The mother looked at me and said "Hello i know what you have been through but we are willing to bring you into the family then we can have another beautiful little girl. The little girl looked at me and said "we will have fun together because you have the same learning disorder as me and we both have blond hair and skinny and small" the father said "we will help you every step of the way and you will love your new room". i smiled and finally saw hope.

Three months later everyone was shocked to see me walking running and talking again. the nurse said it was finally time to go with your new family. The nurse gave me a present from my new mum dad and sister, i opened it with excitement and pulled out a nice new pink dress with white tights and new pink shoes. There was a card it stayed "we are so glad you made it through this nightmare and pulled through so we bought you this and there is still more to come because we are coming to get you today! i was so excited, i ran in my hospital room and put on my new outfit while the nurse was pleating my hair. Few hours later the family came through gave me a hug and held my hand they put me in there car with the little girl next to me and off we went to the new house.

As we arrived i took one look at the house and my mouth dropped it was massive. My new mum was holding two suitcases with all me new clothes and my new father was holding all my new teddy bears. Then the little girl took my hand and ran with me to my new bedroom i was so happy to see all of my new furniture. It looked like a princess's room. The mother and father kissed me and the little girl hugged me they said that i have been through so much that i should now live like a princess. My new dad gave me my locket.

Sometimes I wonder,
Why could my dad not have lived ?
is he with my mum now ?
is it okay to cry ?

Brotherhood. Sweat, tears, blood.

Gaheris looked at his pal... Yue reaching out his hand to help him up.

"Don't give up, we still got time left."

Gaheris almost broke into tears because of intense stress on the match.

He grabbed hold of Yue's hand and Yue lifted him up.
He gave a pat of encourage on Gaheris's shoulder and gave him a wink.

"We can still win this..."




Gaheris's eyes gotten teary and gave Yue and nod.

"Let's GO!!!"










A ball, 2 goal nets, 24 players......
But only one star, to be centre of attention.

Countdown begins..


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"Gaheris! Gaheris! Gaheris! "
the crowd began wild and roaring, cheering for Gaheris as he dribble through the court and attempt to dunk.

"Dunk Gaheris!!!" screamed Yue.

5.

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 Gaheris looked at the scoreboard. All that he hear was his panting and heartbeat.
He took his spring, aim..


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"BEEEEEEEEEEEEEP"
It's the end of the match.

With the score 78 vs 77.
The winner is..........................................................


Gaheris looked at the ball.........







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A drop of tear rolled down...





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Gaheris was the captain of his school basketball team, his big and muscular body made him through multiples of matches.
He got the body but he didn't have the skill.

Yue was the former captain of the team. He was voted out because Gaheris stole his attention.
 But he didn't mind as he knew that everybody is the star.




One day, Yue was practicising in the school basketball court.


Gaheris looked at Yue from far away.


Gaheris:" He surely does have awesome skills.... rebound... dunks..... tricks..... I wonder how he could learn all this."


Yue noticed Gaheris watching him, he waved him... smiling.


Gaheris:" Isn't he supposed to be angry at me for replacing him as captain? Why is he smiling at me?"


Yue's smile was sincere, asking him to come to have a play match.


Gaheris had the size, but he was too slow for Yue's speed dribble.
"Score!" Yue shouted as he dunked.


Gaheris was embarrassed. "Erm... erm.. could you teach me how to do that?"

Yue:" Sure! " He smiled.


Gaheris was stunned. "You don't mind? Because I...."

Yue:" No no. not at all"


Yue gave him a wink, and Gaheris felt a friendship was connected.

Gaheris smiled back.



They trained for the whole night. And soon they went to the school field to take a breathe.

Gaheris:" So what makes you so passion about basketball?"

Yue:" My father was a former NBA player. And I want to show that I can do better that my dad."

Gaheris:" My dad passed away when I was young. He always play basketball with me when he came back from work. Basketball... is the only thing that will let me remember his voice and appearance."


Gaheris's eyes started to soak. Yue saw it and he said:" One day, you and I... surely will be the star of the basketball game. I assure you."

He gave him a smile for assurance.
"I'll be standing by you. Brother."


Gaheris was grateful. "Brothers."




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Coach:" The next match will be against The Red Bulls. I know they were the strongest in the nation but if you guys win this match, the NBA team will offer applications for you guys."

Yue's eyes lightened up.


Coach:" There's a catch, there's only one application."

Coach:" Train hard, sweat, blood, tears, energy, victory! Go Hawks!!"


The whole team:" YES COACH!"


Gaheris looked at Yue, he knew that Yue wanted this application.


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The Hawks team trained hard for the past weeks for the match..




The day of the game.....



The Red Bulls surely is the best of the best. The strongest team that the Hawks have ever encountered. It was an exhausting game.


During the short break..........

Yue:" Gaheris, you got the stamina, I got the speed. I taught you how to dunk so go for the last dunk!"

Gaheris looked at him:" But there's only one application."

Yue:" I wanted you to have it. Basketball is the only way to see your father...."

Gaheris:" but..."


Yue:" GO FOR THE LAST DUNK"

The team scattered to the game.




Announcer:" Now,  76 vs 77. Ladies and gentlemen, this game will created history!"



Coach:" LET'S GO GO GO GO GO!"


Yue gave Gaheris a signal.





Gaheris was still unsure. He knew that Yue wanted this....

"Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee"

Announcer:" The game has begin ladies and gentlemen."




Yue passed the ball to Gaheris and Gaheris still hold on to the ball, unsure to move forward or give the chance to Yue.


Yue:" Go Gaheris!"


Gaheris's mind went into silent mode.

Then suddenly he felt a knock.

One of the Red Bulls has snatched the ball and knocked Gaheris.



Coach:" FOUL!!!!"


Yue walked foward to Gaheris who was on the floor...

"Hey buddy, need a hand?"



Gaheris looked at his pal... Yue reaching out his hand to help him up.


"Don't give up, we still got time left."


Gaheris almost broke into tears because of intense stress on the match.

He grabbed hold of Yue's hand and Yue lifted him up.
He gave a pat of encourage on Gaheris's shoulder and gave him a wink.

"We can still win this..."




Gaheris's eyes gotten teary and gave Yue and nod.

"Let's GO!!!"











A ball, 2 goal nets, 24 players......
But only one star, to be centre of attention.


Countdown begins..




10


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"Gaheris! Gaheris! Gaheris! "
the crowd began wild and roaring, cheering for Gaheris as he dribble through the court and attempt to dunk.

"Dunk Gaheris!!!" screamed Yue.

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 Gaheris looked at the scoreboard. All that he hear was his panting and heartbeat.
He took his spring, aim..




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"BEEEEEEEEEEEEEP"
It's the end of the match.


With the score 78 vs 77.
The winner is..........................................................



Gaheris looked at the ball.........







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A drop of tear rolled down...





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"THE WINNER OF TONIGHT'S GAME IS THE HAWKS!!!!"




The crowd cheered wildly.




 "HAWKS HAWKS HAWKS HAWKS!"


Yue grabbed Gaheris's hand and lift it to the air.
"HAWKS HAWKS HAWKS!"


Gaheris looked at Yue, he saw droplets of tears coming out from Yue's eyes.



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A few weeks later......


Gaheris received the application from the NBA.
He signed, as it is Yue who was the one who qualify for this.
 He went to Yue's house and knocked the door.


Yue answered , still with a smile.


Gaheris:" I want you to have this"

Yue:" It's yours, you earned it."


Gaheris:" I didn't, I wouldn't have if you didn't taught me."

Yue:" No I mean, I got my own too. We're going to the NBA together."

Yue showed his application letter from the NBA.

Gaheris was stunned. But happy.






They both applied for the NBA and succeeded in becoming the youngest player of all time.

Both of them side by side made history internationally.
 Brought Glory,   gained victory from sweat, tears and blood.
 Yue showed his ability to his father.
Gaheris connect with his father through basketball.



Everytime, when they meet up.

Yue:"Brothers"





Gaheris:"Brothers"

Don't worry... You and I will be safe and sound...

"Doctor! Her heartbeat's getting weaker!!!"

Nicholas was drenched with sweat in his white robe.
"I won't let you go!"
He quickly pressed on Melody's chest.

"Wake up... please just open your eyes... You haven't finish my wish."


"Dee... Dee... deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee........"

"No! No! No!" Nicholas kept pressing,
hoping for a miracle,
hoping for her breathe,
hoping that she'll open her eyes.
hoping..... she won't leave him alone...

"Doctor... it's too late, she's gone for several minutes..."

"No! No! I'll save her!!!" Nicholas shouted. And didn't gave up on saving Melody.

"Remember what you promised me!   Don't leave me alone! Wake up!!!"




The nurses and assistance looked at the devastated doctor...
Crying and didn't gave up... he kept pressing.....
They all began to sob.... eyes became teary...


"Doctor...."
One of the nurses patted Nicholas's shoulder.


Nicholas then stopped.... feeling to tired to press any longer...
Watch Melody's cold body.... His eyes kept rolling pearls of tears.


"Melody..... Don't leave me....."





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Melody was a sweet and friendly girl.
Everybody adore her for her sweetness.

One day, she was admitted to the hospital for her sudden serious asthma.
And was advised to stay back at the hospital for further treatment as she was diagnosed with lung failure and need a lung transplant.

It was a shocking news for Melody and her family as she was a healthy child.
The asthma was just consider as a minor but it soon became serious day by day.
But Melody didn't let this tragedy ruined her life.



Nicholas:" I know that it is a bad news, but Melody, you need a lung transplant.”
Melody:" No worries doctor, I won't want any sacrifices or donation. If God destined that it is my time, then I will follow God."

She smiled and denied any treatment.

Nicholas was stunned. As almost never.... a girl would be so brave to confront this kind of matter between life and death. And never she still can be smiling when confronting this matter.

"Her smile.... "

Nicholas started to take a liking to Melody.
Nicholas:" Well, then.We'll follow your decision, but Melody, you must stay back at the hospital for further treatment though."




Everyday, Nicholas will help Melody to get well.
He gave her breathing aids.
And stand by her .
 As he was her main doctor.

Despite it. The only way to save her is only through transplantation, but Melody refused.

 Everyday after stressful times in the hospital, the only thing will relax Nicholas is talking will Melody.

Melody always carry a sweet smile on her face, and constantly laughing.

Nicholas:" If tomorrow is the end of the world, and you have the chance to go anywhere in the world for today. Where would you go?"
Melody:" The Maldives! I always want to feel warm sand on my feet and the sea breeze blowing my face."

Nicholas eyes widen. 
"You never been to the beach? Never seen the ocean?"

Melody:" After since I had asthma, my mother won't let me go out alone. She always kept me indoors. So..."

Nicholas：“ If you recover, I'll bring you to the Maldives."

Melody:" Really??"

Nicholas put on a bright smile, and sweared . "Really!. "

Melody:" I promise I'll recover."

Nicholas:" Promise."




Nicholas brought Melody out of the hospital by the wheelchair in the middle of the night during his night shift.

Melody:" Look at the stars. Wow!"

Nicholas:" Ya... It's a beau.... Look a shooting star!"

Melody:" Make a wish!"

Melody closed her eyes quickly, wishing.
Nicholas looked at her. He moved closer and gave a peck on her cheek.

Melody's cheek went red.
"Erm.... erm...."

Nicholas:" What did you wished for?"

Melody:" I wished.. that I'll recover so I could go to the Maldives... with you...."

Nicholas was happy when he hear this but he kept calm and look at the stars.




Melody:" Nicholas.... what if.. just what If... I didn't recover.... I'll be one of those stars watching you... protecting you..... "

Nicholas looked at her.. As an experienced doctor, he knew it all along there's only 30% chance that Melody will recover without transplantation. He's just waiting for the day, it was like the end of the day for him everyday.

His eyes became teary. "Melody..... please keep your promise"





The next day, Melody felt pain in her chest and had difficulties in her breathing.
 Nicholas and a few nurses rushed in and tried to save her...



Melody's heartbeat's getting weaker and the oxygen supply didn't worked for her.

"Doctor! Her heartbeat getting weaker!!!"

Nicholas was drenched with sweat in his white robe.
"I won't let you go!"
He quickly pressed on Melody's chest.

"Wake up... please just open your eyes... You haven't finish my wish."


"Dee... Dee... deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee........"

"No! No! No!" Nicholas kept pressing,
hoping for a miracle,
hoping for her breathe,
hoping that she'll open her eyes.
hoping..... she won't leave him alone...

"Doctor... it's too late, she's gone for several minutes..."

"No! No! I'll save her!!!" Nicholas shouted. And didn't gave up on saving Melody.

"Remember what you promised me!   Don't leave me alone! Wake up!!!"




The nurses and assistance looked at the devastated doctor...
Crying and didn't gave up... he kept pressing.....
They all began to sob.... eyes became teary...




"Doctor...."
One of the nurses patted Nicholas's shoulder.





Nicholas then stopped.... feeling to tired to press any longer...
Watch Melody's cold body.... His eyes kept rolling pearls of tears.




"Melody..... Don't leave me....."


















After Melody's burial, Nicholas took a week off and had a vacation to the Maldives.

At night, he sat on the beach, and gazed upon the stars, knowing one of the stars is Melody.

"I'm at the Maldives, and I wished that you're with me now."

Melody's spirit sat beside Nicholas and lie on his shoulders.

Nicholas can't see her nor feel her, he didn't know that Melody was beside her.



"I love you Melody."


"I love you too ............. Nicholas.... and I'll always do...."



Nicholas's eyes started to become teary and Melody looked at him. She also started to roll pearls of tears.


"I'll be by your side everyday..... "

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 "So don't worry, because you and I will be safe... and.. sound...."

I regretted, in letting you go.

The radio squealed happily, but his body shook with every word. He reached out with his hand and touched the button. The sound of the road rolling under the worn tires filled the car when the radio stopped. As his destination came nearer, he sighed, yawned and stretched; it had been a long day. It would be a longer night. He backed into a parking spot on the edge and turned the key. The tired engine finally died.

He signed... 

He's in the car alone, in the middle of nowhere, alone under the star-filled sky.

 

Silence.....


He crawled out of the car. The chill of the icy winter air caught him off guard, and he grabbed at his shoulders to warm them. The gravel on the unpaved ground scrunched loudly under his feet as he strolled to the back of the car. He put his hands in his pockets. He sighed and looked at the grave.


“Hi, I came to see you. I missed you...”

His legs let him fall to sit on the edge of the steep drop-off.  If only she was here; then it would be a perfect night.

More silence....


He looked out over the sky, over the horizon and knew he was looking into her eyes. The eyes that could burn through his heart when they filled themselves with tears. Eyes like oceans, big and wide, when she was afraid.

It wasn't true, it couldn't be.
“It isn't true,” he told the sky, “It can't be,” he explained, but he knew it was. It had to be.

"Are you sad, did you missed me? Are you living happily up there?"


 

For a moment, he sat still, starring into the empty sky. It waited for him to make his move.


 A bling in the sky. A comet shot passed.

 

He had seen her, hadn't he? It couldn’t have been his imagination, could it? There was no way. It had happened, and he had seen her.

“Tania?.... Is that you?"

Again, silence.


“It isn't true,” he murmured under his breath, “It can't be,” and even as he said it, he knew the opposite was true, “I saw you.”
He forced himself to sit down again on the edge of the cliff and all was silent.

 


"I'm sorry Tania, if only... I didn't let you go..."

Silence. Time to think.
“What have I done?” his tone expressed true bewilderment.
Silence.
“It can't be true,” he lied to himself.
Time to think.
“I won't cry,”

He shivered as his chin touched his knees. In his mind he knew he would have to go home soon, but in his heart he knew he would never call it 'home' again. Not until the memory her laying there on the table had faded from his mind. 

"If only I grabbed you tight with all the energy............"
"If only there's no blood on my hand to make you slipped off me.."

"I'm sorry Tania...."

He stood up and strolled to the trunk of his car. He slid onto the trunk and heard it creak under his weight. He leaned against the windshield, and knew at once that he couldn't take it. His eyes watered and he pulled his knees up to his chin.
“I won't cry,” he sniffled, “I won't.”

He put his head in his hands and rocked back and forth slowly with steady, silent sobs. His shoulders shook softly and he wished for her to grab him; to hold him and comfort him.



He opened the heart-shaped locket Tania gave him for their anniversary.
There they were, smiling hugging each other. Trust and faith.


"If only I didn't let go.............."

The small droplets of salt water returned to his eyes when he thought about going home. His body shivered, and his mind ignored its needs as he thought. He let his cold hands return to his pockets and remembered his wedding band. His own voice echoed through his head telling her he wouldn't take it off as long as he lived. Now, sitting on the trunk of his tiny red car, he removed it and tossed it around in his hands. He let his fingers roll it around between themselves and smiled. His mind told him to throw it over the edge, but his hands knew better. This wasn't her fault.

 


 He walked, scrunching the gravel beneath his shoes, back to the front of his car, and opened the door. As he took one last look at the city he knew he wouldn't be back again.

Silence again.
The city and the sky bid him farewell as he crawled into the driver's seat and turned the key in the ignition. His cold fingers twitched on the wheel, and he hit the button on the radio. A calm, peaceful song filled the car. He turned the volume up and was engulfed in the sad delight of the tune. 







He started the car's engine.


"Tania, I'm coming... "




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